Many people have asked what they can do for me and my family during this time of pure and utter hell. You have said “anything”. I want you to know that we all appreciate your offers but the ONLY thing we want, no one can do for us.
Instead, I have a few requests of yourself…
-hug your loved ones! Tell them EVERY DAY that you love them and how much they mean to you! EVERY DAY! While you are hugging them feel them, plant that memory of what their arms feel like wrapped around you, notice it, be present! Also notice their smell, plant that memory in your brain!
-take pictures…MOMS, I’m talking to you here! I don’t mean be the one behind the camera taking pictures! I mean BE IN THE PICTURES!!! Get your mommas in the pictures!!!
-don’t even try to imagine what we are going through! Please don’t! I never want any of you to go through this F’ing hell! This is a place no one should visit!
I guess I have one request for us…just LOVE US! We are not pretty right now! Honestly, I’m okay residing right where I am: feeling broken, crying, aching, fearful, feeling like I don’t want to face the world! I’m okay there right now and for the foreseeable future. I trust I will move from this space. I trust that God is holding us together. I trust we will get trough this. Right now, I feel like this is where I need to be. I feel like if we are all together that nothing else can happen. I feel safe. I feel like if I live in this pure hell at least I’m still connected to her and she knows just how much we cared! So please just LOVE US! You don’t need to be near to love us, I know many are far way. Just let us know you love us and will continue to love us, even when we are angry, jerks, loaners, not returning your calls or messages…JUST LOVE US because SHE LOVED!!!
#SheLOVED
#PattiLulu
This post was first written on Facebook on May 28, 2019
