August is my birthday month, but birthdays haven’t felt quite the same since losing my mom in May 2019. She was my best friend, my confidant, my first home, and my safe space. She called me her baby girl even well into my 40s—and I never imagined how much I would miss hearing those words. This National Grief Awareness Day, I’m finding my way back to writing and reflecting on the complicated space between celebrating another year of life and grieving the person who brought me into this world.
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The month of May…
I started this post 2 years ago (May 6, 2021)…Emotionally, I just haven’t been able to make a post. I’m making a commitment to getting back to it. Writing helps me cope, it’s therapy if you will! I believe we all need therapy The month of May brings so many celebrations! Bridal showers in preparation …
I Lost You Again Today :'(
Today, I lost you again. Today it hurt just like it did 18+ months ago. Today, I’m weeping as if I had just held your hand again and then it was gone. Every day, I lose you, but today was different. Today I lost you again because today, I read your name in an obituary …
31,622,394 Seconds
That’s how long it’s been since mom left us. This blog space has been on my heart so many days in the last year…but it is so hard to come back here and actually create something…I mean from beginning to end! I have a few posts sitting in various stages in my drafts. Today’s post …
A Moment in time…
May 23, 2019 at 9:14:32AM. A date and time I will never forget. A date and time forever etched in my soul, on my heart, and in my brain. A date and time I wish I could erase. May 23, 2019 at 7:15AM. Another date and time I will never forget. A date and time, …
Falling apart
Dear Friend…I cannot adequately express what you have done for me! Yesterday’s unexpected landmine rocked me, broke me apart again and not only were you available for me, you came running to sit with me and put me back together! 3 hours that you took out of you day, away from the girls, days before …
Want to help…
Truth! So thankful for those of you have done this for me!! You’ve ignored the awkward, stayed and talked…even cried with me! I will forever be grateful for you and I will never forget how you have loved me through this pain! #SheLoved #PattiLulu This post was first written on Facebook on July 1, 2019
Some Validation I was in need of
I highly recommend this book! It validated EVERYTHING I am feeling!! I’ve only finished the first Part I: For Those Who Are Grieving. This section of the book was written as of the author was in my head! I’ve begun Part II: How To Comfort Someone Who is Grieving. So far so good. I’m looking …
And yet we are Thankful
As I posted on Wednesday, grief is a crazy, horrible, complicated thing! It sucks! It is hell! And it is…so complicated and MESSY!!!! This morning as I grieve losing mom and missing her I was also feeling excitement, be it anxious excitement! I’m also feeling sad and a bit of joy. I had a 10:00 …
I’d like to give my title back, PLEASE!!!
This… EVERY thing changes, EVERY THING, EVERY LITTLE THING! 💔 😞 💔 Never the same…tomorrow is 5 weeks. Life changed in 2 hours time and I will never be the same person I was 5 weeks ago tonight. I want to give my title back!! I want to take Kiddo to his well child/sports physical …
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