Started a new book today…Grief Day by Day.
Cannot believe I haven’t talked to her in 1 month! Not since infancy has that happened! I’ve learned so much in this month; things I never wanted to learn especially at this age! I really thought I had another 25 years with her😢 What I learned first was that I will that not only did my whole world change when I lost her but I changed too! I received a new title “motherless daughter”. Would have left that title sitting in the shelf forever if it was up to me!
I also learned that if you had a tragic loss in your life and I knew you then that I did NOT show up for you well! I’m sorry for that! I’ve learned! It’s not the thought or the words that matter at a time like this! It’s the action! It’s the text that you are being thought of, the not accepting no as an answer, the just sitting together-not to solve a problem but to just be, it’s the forcing me to think when I just wanted to crawl up in a ball! For those of you have SHOWN UP for me during this month…THANK YOU! I love you more that you know!
Mom, I’ve learned because of you! Miss you every day, mom! Still waiting for you to walk through the door! ❤️❤️❤️
#SheLoved
#PattiLulu
This post was first written on Facebook on June 23, 2019
